So Kim and I are doing great. We are working right now on stream lining our food more to take out more and more processed Items. We are eating many fruits and veggies. We are eating lots of lean proteins. I realized this weekend that I am 90lbs lighter than my heaviest weight, even if it has taken longer than I wanted that is really cool. My physical identity is starting to be recognized as a fairly normal sized person. This is all a little new. I have been the big person for a long time.
Another thing I have been doing is working on my mind, brain, thinking, or processes that I have. I am finding ways to access my own peace and happiness that is from me not dictated by an outside source. I, for a long time relied on other people, or items, or situations to provide the happiness I wanted. I was often disappointed in counting on those sources because I had an expectation for them that they could not do. I know for many years I struggled to find forgiveness for people I have held responsible for hurting, or harming me. What I discovered is for me it was not forgiveness I needed to achieve. I had to open my mind and investigate how I felt, why I felt that way, how did I know to feel that way, and realize what I learned was incorrect and I had to change that.
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